Trustworthy. Broken

its been a while. hi  people. i think i wanna tell you about my feeling. the feeling of hurt. because i am easily to trust people. and because of that incident, i think i can't trust people at all, even with the close ones around you.




which one can i trust, between an obviously a liar, or, a person that everybody claimed that the person always backbite for the sake of the person-self. entah. both cannot be trusted. especially, that obviously a liar. kah3. they think im stupid to trust all those words? nah, the fact is fact. even if you twisted around with a little pretty of some reasons, but still, the fact is standing still as a stilt fact.




i trust that everybody made mistakes. so do i. and if you did, just admit. not to pusing2 the words, but in the end, the thing that you were argue and deny at is still the same. i will let you off if you confess and come clean to make it clear. im happy if you do so. but if you're not,i tell you, 2 wrong things that you have done, 1st, you lie to me, 2nd, you make me upset and disappointed. a liar cannot be trusted, precisely, an undeniably a liar.




p/s : you treat me like a stranger and i feel so rough... bye!

Tajam

kata-kata itu lagi tajam dari pisau yang di asah. --proverb




watch out your words! kadang-kadang penyalahgunaan perkataan dalam satu ayat membuatkan satu gurauan biasa menjadi satu gurauan berbisa. aku boleh bergurau tapi x boleh tolerate dengan gurauan yang kasar dan tak kena tempat.




a week ago, kereta aku baru accident. masa tu baru dua hari lepas accident. aku cuba sedaya upaya utuk membaik pulih kereta aku sebab aku sayang kereta kancil yang agak berusia tu. alhamdulillah, walaupun kurang sempurna dari segi fizikalnya, boleh lagi aku gunakan untuk ke kelas, mid valley, balik rumah. alhamduillah, accident haritu hanya mengalami kerosakan body part. x kena engine dan internal parts of car. tapi ada orang yang no sense of thankful, called my car as a tin kemek bergerak. tajam betul bahasa. sentap. tak pernah orang mengeluarkan pendapat yang menyakitkan hati terhadap property aku macam tu walaupun kawan-kawan aku yang selalu naik kereta dengan aku.




just now, another unsuspected word from someone that called me a name that was insulted me. kes yang sama, penggunaan kata yang agak tak kena untuk greet aku. keadaan di mana aku berada dalam sekumpulan kawan-kawan aku yang bakal bergraduasi, lalu ditegur oleh seorang sahabat, "hi yaya extend". i was like, "yaya extend? sampai nya hati cakap macam tu.." (i was stepped away from her) sedih rasa macam nak mengalir air mata. masakan tidak, for this moment, most of us akan graduate. dan aku tak bersama meraka. sedih wooooo.. rasa terhina sangat, rasa bodoh, rasa malu, rasa semua lah.





dont expect people will have the same way of thinking just the way you are. and please, respect each other.






p/s : i am not naive.

idioms talk.

a perfect look doesn't mean it perfect for everything. by trusting, "nobody is perfect" a perfect looks is just an appearance, physically can be seen with our naked eyes.  they perfect look is one of the package, but still, it doesn't show the perfection. beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. by applying "don't judge a book by it's cover", i can feel that, everybody is perfect on their own way. trust me, to live in a perfect life, it doesn't mean, we will get the happiness for entire life. because we are created to be perfect for each other, to one and another, not to perfect for yourself, only yourself.



p/s : stop being selfish.